This is Violet from Greer's blogs. I'm not sure if anyone has insight on this sort of issue, but thought it might be worth a go:
For many years I ran with dirty kids with radical leftist beliefs, anarchists, Marxists, gender ideolouges etc. They were the only people who seemed to be able to understand the deep wounds that "the system" left in me. They were the only people who seemed appropriately angry, and so it was simple enough for me to enter into the groupthink.
Around 2013 this group think began to falter; I began to question blind allegiance to certain narratives, and tried to think for myself a bit more, or at least to parrot more diverse sources. This is a process that I'm still engaged with; I have only faint glimmerings of my own thoughts, but can parrot many more viewpoints better than five years ago.
It appears to me that the pervasive screen based technology is making people less friendly, more machine-like and superficial. It feels like a bad sci-fi story. Because of my appearance people put me into a box as "radical transgender," but this box is actually not representative of much besides a certain current I got caught in when I was younger. This too feels like bad sci-fi! So I'm outside of the current zeitgeist (using screens, especially cell phones, is always somewhat painful to me) and then outside of my little insider niche; I vigorously disagree with many of the gender ideology positions that my peers have. Not to say I have anything against trans-people, just I think there are a lot on inconsistencies in the narrative and a lot of people are getting hurt because of sloppy magical thinking.
Together this equals social death. For awhile I was in denial about seemingly losing my friends, and not even being able to relate to them, but increasingly it is appearing more and more that this is what is happening. Now perhaps I've moved into anger or depression. This comes as rather painful to me, since I've been a generous person to my friends, I've given a lot and feel now am left high and dry. It's really quite horrible, regardless of my culpability or personal responsibility; I imagine it feels similar to watching oneself go bankrupt, but with affection and belonging rather than dollars. I've probably lost 75% of my social capital in the past year, and don't have enough to sustain myself over the long term. My heart is "starving." Friends don't return letters or phone calls, for a large fraction I've decided to give up on trying to stay in touch.
I'm really in the dark about what to do; I find myself wanting to move south of the Mason Dixon line where there is more of an emphasis on courtesy, but I literally have nothing to go on besides some tarot card readings and a hunch! This is to say that while I may currently have savings and may be able to get a job, the collapse is already here for me in a real way, at least in terms of social disintigration.
May I ask, are there people here who have experience in this? If so how did you make through to the otherside of losing your friendships? Is there good advice besides keep a clean nose and pray? Kind words welcome!